Why do you want to learn English when you are 36 years old?

on Wednesdays and Fridays every week, I leave an hour late and stay in the office to work overtime.

but as long as you take a closer look at my computer screen, you will find that I am working on my English composition.

my English composition is so stupid that there will be the most basic grammatical mistakes. I am so stupid that I enlarge the font size and mark it with phonetic symbols for all the words I don't know so that the print looks uneven on the paper, but even so, I will still misread it. I will be nervous and stammer.

I always wear headphones on the road. Inside, I record the teacher's teaching voice with the microphone, and the microphone goes to record the voice in the loudspeaker, most of the time the voice is very low. When the subway is noisy, I will cover my ears with one hand so that I can hear more clearly.

my English is so poor that I don't have any foundation.

I only know 26 English letters, and I can recite no more than 200words alone. My most correct spelling and longest words are English words with more than 7 student, letters. I can hardly read them, and my grammar is still at the most basic level of this is. I didn't know mine had anything to do with me.

for me, sentences with more than five words can only be guessed.

I have never passed the English exam.

I began to learn English in junior high school. I can't remember how many times I told myself before class. I was punished for not being able to say a complete sentence.

my English score in the college entrance examination is 37.

when we were in college that year, the art major did not require CET-4. I had never seen a CET-4 certificate before.

when I go abroad, I can only speak two formed foreign languages, this one and how much.

the composition I prepare every Wednesday and Friday is to look at the sample sentences of the textbook, and then think about it little by little. I can only turn to Baidu for translation if I don't understand the sentence. If I don't know the words, I can only use Baidu to search for the words. Listen to the voice broadcast repeatedly, and then if I can't remember, I can only copy the phonetic alphabet and put it in the composition.

Yes, I am learning English.

I am 36 years old.

my English teacher's name is Hazel, Forgive me for not knowing how to read her so far. She is a girl with a good voice and a very nice person. She is the listener of my radio, and I don't remember when she appeared on my Wechat.

during the Spring Festival, when she saw that I wanted to learn English in my moments, she sent me a message saying that she had taught a foreign language and could teach me.

I hardly said a word in the first class, because I was very ashamed to open my mouth. I try to figure it out bit by bit in the process of following me over and over again.

every time the essay given by the teacher is not long, the words and knowledge points are extended from many angles. She always encourages me to say one more word, one more word. And give me an affirmation.

I just finished my eleventh class today, and I was eating noodles quickly a minute before class. Most of the time, I couldn't eat on Wednesday and Friday, because as long as it was a little longer, I had to start preparing in the afternoon. Once I had a meeting or subordinates looking for me, my time would be taken up and I had to be in a hurry.

you may ask, why are you still learning this at such an old age? Sometimes I ask myself the same thing.

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I know that I am a disabled child in the field of English. I have never expected that I can advance by leaps and bounds in a month or a few classes. I don't have a basic goal or purpose in learning English. It's like an abscess that you've been hiding under your robe for many years. Suddenly one day you don't know why you dare to open your robe and look directly at it with your eyes. Use your hands to peel off the dead skin.

everyone has their shortcomings and is not good at it, some people are not good at speaking, some people are not good at summarizing, I am not good at English. It's not a flaw, and it won't matter if we don't have these strengths. So for a long time, we chose to ignore it. Why spend effort in areas you are not good at?

I used to think the same way as you.

once I was not good at dealing with people, but then my job required me to wait for calls from clients 24 hours a day and be reasonable.

once I was afraid to speak in a crowded place, but then I found that on some occasions, as long as you have a position, you have to face the dilemma of speaking on the stage.

the time finally made me look like the kind of person I envied. Can take the stage to speak, full of confidence. You can talk eloquently and have a topic at any time. Even if I am the only one who knows it, I have to type the manuscript several times before I go on stage, and I get wet and sweaty after each speech.

everyone can change, and we all want to be better. Or just be brave. Be braver.

We can face difficulties and pressure, but most of the time we dare not face ourselves. Face our shortcomings.

Why should I learn English?

maybe I just want to face my weakness again.

it's like I was honest about my inferiority complex at that time. So far, before I speak, I will smile and say, I am sorry that I am very nervous now, so I hope you can give me a little more applause and then make a deep bow.

it's like I thought get rid of the "problem" of trembling all over when I went on stage, I forced myself to be an event host. As a result, I was so nervous before I went on stage that I was like sieving bran. It wasn't until I hosted nearly ten events that I finally realized that there are some "problems" that you can't quit. You just need to accept it, accept its existence, and then it will automatically correct.

Why do people shine confidently?

is not conceited, not self-deceiving?

is because it is complete.

you may never close the gap in your life, but when you choose to turn a blind eye to it, your gap will get bigger and bigger. These gaps can affect your self-proclaimed strengths in some way.

only if you dare to face it and accept that it is a part of your body, can you repair it, even a little bit, is progress.

Today, you may not understand my feelings at this time for the rest of your life. It took me six hours for someone else to write an English composition in 16 minutes. Maybe outsiders saw the same result. But what I see is no less than the great success of mountain torrents and tsunamis.

you don't understand what it's like to fall and get up frustrated and excited. It's a feeling that you try your best to do it, but you still pass, but you can still be in high spirits.

that's not enthusiasm, it's courage.

the point is not the result, but the feeling that you dare to do it even though you know you are not good at it.

that's a compliment worthy of applause.

36 years old, I began to learn English, just hoping that in the future, I can go further.